This might sound cheesy but I always hoped for a Carrie Bradshaw fairytale ending. Yes, a courthouse wedding ceremony in Manolo Blahnik’s, wearing a label-free dress. The idea of no pressure, no expectations of others or stress of planning sounded like a beautiful way to focus on what we were celebrating—LOVE.
To all of the mothers, who feel that their life suddenly feels mundane—it is often in the mundane where we can notice the glory of it all. I encourage you, as I have been encouraged, to revel in this new normal. Find your rituals, your rhythms, and create something new. You can pursue what makes you come alive, and be a loving mother; sometimes you will find its one and the same.
Part of the process of a home birth is not having an epidural (if you decide to get one you will be transferred to the care of a hospital) - most women I talked to thought I was crazy because the pain is awful, others having done this themselves said it was worth it (but yes, the pain is no joke). I heard countless birth stories and it seemed that every woman had a different experience and no birth was alike.
I always get asked the question, “WHY, what made you want to do this?” My answer: The feeling I got when our first son came into this world, the moment you become a mother. That feeling right there in that moment; that is what I want to bless another woman with.
What I thought was a healthy and normal pregnancy turned out to be my worst nightmare. The doctors diagnosed me with an incompetent cervix and I went into pre-term labor. My cervix began to dilate and I was losing amniotic fluid, so they placed me on bed rest and was put on antibiotics and medication to stop labor. A few days passed, and things took a turn for the worse and the doctors told me my body was ready to deliver this baby