What I thought was a healthy and normal pregnancy turned out to be my worst nightmare. The doctors diagnosed me with an incompetent cervix and I went into pre-term labor. My cervix began to dilate and I was losing amniotic fluid, so they placed me on bed rest and was put on antibiotics and medication to stop labor. A few days passed, and things took a turn for the worse and the doctors told me my body was ready to deliver this baby
We pushed through the nipple confusion, bleeding, clogged ducts, and made it through to the other side. I couldn’t be more grateful to have the privilege to breastfeed him. My experience really solidified that breastfeeding is a privilege and it was an obstacle that I am so grateful I was able to overcome.
What would our family say? How would I possibly be able to dedicate enough time to each child individually? I was already running on ‘E’ and had just started recovering from my PPD. I was so worried. We literally had to start all over again because I had gotten rid of anything and everything baby that we had laying around.
At times it felt a lot like a dating experience. Sure, there are a ton of moms out there, but you won’t connect with everyone right away. Some moms might not fit your vibe and things simply won’t work out between you. But some moms you will click with right away, whether because you’ve had similar experiences, similar ways of thinking about motherhood, or simply because you have things in common.
The number one piece of advice I received from friends and family was to “eat whatever I want” or “this is the time to really indulge” and although I definitely didn’t think twice about eating spaghetti and meatless “meatballs” for a week straight when it’s all I was craving at one point, I did notice my energy levels and overall feeling of wellbeing began to decline and eventually developed a chronic candida overgrowth for most of the first trimester.